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Ever feel just bogged down for no good one reason, just lots of little things? I feel that way tonight. Caed's been fighting a fever since the Saturday after Thanksgiving. It was about the 104 mark, but more recently it hovered around 101. This morning was his first 24 hours without a fever. I felt great. And it's good news too because tomorrow morning I teach in Caed's classroom and I was worried what would happen if he had a fever again.

Tonight though, Caed started getting REALLY needy. And if you're trying to get a dinner prepared (having to ascend and descend all levels of the house to complete it at this stage) and you're pregnant and then you have a two year old needing you to skip every "commercial" (he watches Noggin, which has no real commercials) and every scene on the TV that he doesn't like in the basement, you start to wonder what's up. So I took his temperature tonight and it's back at 103. On Sunday morning it was 103 and we gave him a bath instead of medicine, and his temperature went down on it's own. So tonight, as usual we were running late and cannot seem to get done with dinner before 8pm, we then bathed him about 8:45, and about 15 minutes after the bath, his temp was down to 100 already. So happy he's responding to a bath instead of continually pumping him with meds- but I can't help but feel overwhelmed and wondering what would be causing such fluctuations in his fevers.

I'm still planning to teach tomorrow and bring Caed, but I might be thinking about giving him Motrin before we leave. I can't say that I'm not stressed about this though.

The dog's been walking on three legs since I came home at one this afternoon. Can't figure out why, and Jon and I have both checked out his paw and leg.

I've got an 8am ultrasound on Wednesday and then I'm in the classroom again on Thursday.

Our house is torn apart, but I honestly am not stressed about that. I feel like that's the blessing in it all. I feel really grateful that we can have this work done and our house will be a much happier place.

I know there are bigger things being dealt with by my friends and family, but I can't shake this feeling of being bogged down. Since we've been trapped inside our house because of Caed's fever, I don't feel like I am experiencing anything from this holiday season. And I know it doesn't have to be commercialism, but I wasn't able to go to my mom's group for the little Christmas party they had, I'm not sure I'll get to the outreach opportunity this week either. I can't bake anything holiday related. I just feel out of touch with the community around me.